I'm done on here. At least for now.

I need a change. And if anyone actually wanted to know how I felt, they should just ask.

Bye.

I have real resolutions this year.
Just for you.

New years was fun. :]
Sans girlfriend kind of sucked, but we've got the whole weekend.
And oh, looooooove my friends.

I'm so sick of being lonely, and watching everyone have a someone right there.
I'm so sick of crying.
I don't want her to ever leave again.

I realized today that I'm still not who I want to be. I feel like I was getting there; I was trying so hard, and then I got lost in what was suddenly expected of me. I'm past the point of turning back, but I don't know how to continue. How are you supposed to know who to trust when you can't even begin to trust yourself? Everything is absolutely perfectly fine until I start to think about it and pick it apart. Then my head starts spinning, and I want to throw up.

I have come to relaize that I must single-handedly destroy everything with promise inside my own head. I can only hope it doesn't escape.

This heart will swing for you, this heart will swing.
This heart will change for you, this heart will change.
This heart will break for you, this heart will break.

Please let things stay the way they are.